Sure I think about dogs, and twins. White noise growing loud enough to drown out the other, spikier, more uncomfortable thoughts. Yesterday I cleaned the bathrooms, hoovered the stairs, did a lot of laundry and never had a moment spare to ask any of the big questions.I feel that I live my life behind a plate glass window a lot of the time. Like the Truman Show in reverse - everyone else is really getting on with things, and I'm just watching. Meaningful connections have been forged with people I can count on the fingers of one hand. Beyond that it's automatic.
That's where this course last weekend was hard. It asked the questions I try to ignore. I guess that's why I went. And now they won't go away as easily, they are clamouring for answers. I guess that's why I went.....
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